Why Is It So Hard?

Why does life seem so hard? Trying to juggle work, kids, spouse, and yourself can be so overwhelming. I try to sit down and write, and no words come out. I started this blog years ago, got a good few posts in, and then life comes along and takes away any time I have to do anything with it for months. I then come back and start it all over again, and things happen again that make me pause for a while. It’s just one vicious cycle. I love writing, I love getting my thoughts out in words to not only help me process things, but also to help anyone else who may be going through things, who may just need some insperation or some guidence or just something for themselves and who knows this may help someone out there that I do not know, and if I can help just one person in my life then thats one more person who can help spread positivitiy in a world that is full of hate. The last post I wrote was over a year ago, when I wrote a letter to my dad letting him know how much I missed him. I have goals for this blog, I have dreams for it, but 2025 felt like an impossible year with impossible standards that we all just barely made it through, it seems. I apologize for not being consistent. I mean, who would want to stick around and read a blog that has maybe a couple of posts a year? But the truth is… Even with the inconsistency, I still want to do this. I want to share information I learn about to better help people’s lives. I want to share joy, sadness, and emotions that otherwise can be bottled up, and to let others know that it is okay to feel things. Because this life is hard enough, you cannot keep things locked up forever; otherwise, it will just bring you down even more.

Every year, I set up “resolutions,” and every year, I fail them within a week. This year, I am taking things slow. I am going to listen to my body and do what I can when I can, and just do small milestones because I cannot do 5 big goals. It’s overwhelming and stressful, and if I don’t complete those goals, I just feel like a failure. I am dealing with quite a few health issues, both physically and mentally, and I just do not want to put so much pressure on myself that I burn out before I even begin. Some of my small Milestones for the year I am working towards are drinking more water (if I get 16 oz a day, I am happy), moving my body more (one of the many health things I am dealing with is weakness and fatigue, so any little bit I can do makes me happy) and overall coming up with systems and such to help my brain feel a little more organized and less overwhelmed. It won’t be easy for me at all. I have a tendency to forget plans and habits and have to start all over again…, but, like Walt Disney said, “Keep Moving Forward”… And that is what I plan to do.