So this year I am determined to get healthier as stated in my previous posts. It is currently slow going but i do wanna say what has been going on the last 2 weeks.
Eating and Drinking Better.
So one thing that I have been trying to do is drink more water. And so far I have been doing pretty good. It may be slow but hey Rome wasn’t built in a day right? But back to the water, every day at breakfast I have been drinking 1 16.9 bottle of water. Now in those 2 weeks I have only missed 2 days for me that is amazing. Now I have read that you want to drink half your weight in oz a day. Take me for example I weigh 145 so that is about 72.50 lbs so I should drink about 72.50 oz of water a day, which if I drink 16.9 oz bottles of water i would need roughly 4 bottles of water a day.
Now that I have gotten into the habit of drinking a bottle of water at breakfast, I am going to try to start drinking 1 at breakfast and 1 at dinner. So I am thinking that now every 2 weeks I am gonna try to add something to it.
Now when it comes to the exercise part of it…that is a little tougher. I will admit I have at least starting fewer naps which is a huge plus. When I usually take a nap I now use that time to do something for myself. Mostly look at pinterest or catching up on shows that I can’t watch when Ella is awake. Once It’s warmer, which I cannot wait till it is, I plan on taking walks up and down our road. I have been doing some stuff more at a stable I work at when they need me. Which includes cleaning stalls and such so it is more physically taxing from what I usually do.
Gonna get going as little miss is waking up. Thanks for reading 🙂
OK Starting Slowly
Alright everyone here it is January 1st, the start of the new year. Where usually all good intentions come to die hehe. You know the resolutions that everyone says they are going to start the very 1st day of the year but end up putting it off and putting it off till the next year comes around. Well this year is not like the last…I hope. Maybe doing this blog will help me stay focused, maybe it wont who knows. With God, and all of you of course, as my witnesses I am surely gonna try. So how did day 1 go you may ask.
Well today I got up and ate a bowl of cereal…alright it was cookie crisps but hey its a slow start. So my day didn’t go as planned but I still did more then I thought. I get why people who have New Years resolutions have a hard time starting on day 1. You stay up late on New Years Eve to watch the ball drop and bring in the new year with family and friends then when you finally hit the pillow its 3am. The late night brings a late morning the next day. Or in my case I went to bed at 3 and woke up at 7 because Ella was ready for the day. I was so tired that I ended up taking a nap when she did. Which mad the idea of exercising for the day go out the window.
What I did do.
That doesn’t mean I didn’t do anything though. I am currently still drinking my only pop of the day. I drank half, put it in the fridge, then had a bottle of water. Not all of you know me personally but if you did you would know that is a feet in itself. I hate water so much that sometimes it makes me sick to my stomach. I even bought water infusers to drink more water last year, but then I got lazy and stopped…unfortunately.
What else did I do today? Well I weighed myself and took my initial measurements.
Just so you know I took these mostly myself so they may not be 100% accurate but they are pretty dang close, also sorry if you don’t understand what they mean it seemed to of squished some of them close when I took the screen shot. (I did make a blank copy for anyone who would like their own.)
Now if you are wondering where I got these measurement ideas from I found this picture on google and thought it would be a good one to follow. AGAIN PLEASE NOTE I DID NOT MAKE THIS.
Beginning photo (Note: wont do a photo every week maybe once a month or once every 6 months)
So here it is Day 1. I thank y’all for following my journey, and keeping me accountable. I am gonna post once a week of progress and failures, because everything has its ups and downs. I am gonna find days during the week to post about my other resolutions but Sundays are for this.
As the year comes to a close her are my reflections of 2016.
This year has brought heartache, love, worries, and joy. As I sit here watching my daughter play with my brother in laws puppy I can’t help but remember how this year went. Its 6 right now as I start writing this only 6 more hours left of the year to write down my reflections
The Ugly and Bad
I started this year all planned to budget and be financially stable, but come March I lost all interest. When March came around Ella got really sick and on my birthday we had to take her to the ER due to high fever. Later that day we found out she had RSV and she had to be admitted. We spent a whole week there and I didn’t leave her side. Her heart rate was out of wack and so was her O2 saturations throughout the week. I, being a concerned special needs mama called all of her specialist to just make sure everything was okay. It was just the RSV running its course. Once she was healthy enough to come home I lost all focus of my new years resolutions and just focused on Ella. She is fine now obviously but still scared me.
This was Ella during her hospital stay this year.
Even when sick her smile never leaves.
Then May came around my husband lost his job which was absolutely devastating. What were we gonna do I was a stay at home mom, he was our only source of income. Thankfully we were able to budget and learn to live within our means and make it through. It was hard but we made it. That’s why this year we are sticking to a budget and learning to save. You never know what tomorrow will bring.
Then as my previous post I lost my fur baby Brit the Monday before Christmas. Currently I am having some issues cause my brother in laws puppy looks a lot like her. Maybe this year we will get 2 more puppies one for me and one for Ella 🙂
This year we had a lot of ugly and bad things happen to our family but we also had a lot of good things happen to us too. My husband was able to get not one but 2 jobs which helped us out a lot. Ella got to go to yearly visits for Cardiology and Pulmonology. She also doesn’t need to have another sleep study for a year. I will write about her next one cause it is NOT a pretty sight lol. I also got a job…though I don’t really want to leave Ella. She is starting Preschool soon and the job I got will be good for me.
I got a job as a substitute teacher, which means I can work as much or as little as I want. With my anxiety I am petrified to leave Ella. When I am away from her I always get anxious. This job will let me start out small and work my way up. I haven’t worked since 4 days before Ella was born. That was over 2.5 years ago, so thankfully with this slow start my anxiety won’t be to bad.
Well family is starting to come so I should probably go. Have a safe and Happy New Years Eve. If you are drinking tonight please please PLEASE have a dd or call a cab.
Well here are some of mine and why its important.
Become More Physically Healthy
- Eat Better- Right now I eat like I don’t care. I have an issue drinking water and I know that is something needed every day.
- Exercise more- I am always tired so I spend most of my time inside on the couch or playing with Ella. Unfortunately I don’t usually have the energy to play. I have heard that if you exercise more you get more energy so I am hoping that it will help
- Loose a little weight- Before I had Ella I weighed about 115 now I weigh about 150 now that wouldn’t be bad if it was muscle weight but its definitely not so i’m hopefully gonna try to build muscle and loose fat what everyone hopes to do
Become More Mentally Healthy
- I have Depression and anxiety so this year I am going to try to do things for me. Every week take a mental health day to reflect on the week and to see what I can do to relieve stress, anxiety and depressive episodes
- Start learning yoga and Meditation. I have downloaded apps and looked on pinterest to find good beginning yoga poses for well beginners.
Become Financially Stable
- This past year my husband lost his job. It took about 6 months to find another one so we fell behind on bills and such. It was hard, but this coming year I have a job and so does he 🙂
- This year I want to be able to pay down debt. I am hoping to pay off everything that isn’t student loan debts and if we finish that at a decent time I am hoping to go full speed to pay those down.
- Stick to a budget…. it is so hard to do that when your brain wants to be in 50 million places at once. So I am hoping to keep it straight and such I can do that right? YES I CAN (gotta start on positive side)
Become More Organized
- I am very organized in my head, not my thoughts but of how I can be organized. I have so many ideas to stay organized but when people come around and then mess things up I start feeling like a failure and give up. Well this year I am determined to not let that get to me and continue to be organized.
- I will clean out/off my desk and continue to keep it clean all year. I will make that my space to organize my thoughts and such at the end of everyday to help with not becoming overwhelmed.
I may add more but right now this seems like a good starter.
What are some of your New Years Resolutions?
Depression sucks especially during the winter when the winter Blues hit.
Everyone has heard of the winter blues, and I am sure everyone gets them at some point. When you live with depression, its life a constant state of winter blues. This year winter has been especially hard, with lack of finances and losing a loved one.
This year my husband spent a while looking for a job after loosing his back in may. It took him about 5 months to find another job, so it hit us hard financially.
When Christmas came around we could barely afford presents for our daughter. Thankfully we were able to get enough and also a nice church donated some toys for her. I found a Cozy Coup cars at a swap meet. fixed it up by painting it lilac and plum. Even though we were able to get her presents doesn’t mean that I didn’t spend a lot of time feeling depressed. I sat there when we went to different family Christmas parties and watched Ella opening presents from everyone knowing we as her parents weren’t able to give her as many gifts as we wanted. It is sad how Christmas has become very materialistic. At least Ella is only 2.5 and won’t remember this year much.
Loosing a Fur Baby is hard.
To add to it, on the Monday before Christmas my roughly 10 year old puppy passed away after being sick for a while. I was going to put her to sleep in November but she then started acting better so I thought that maybe she was just sick and finally felt better. She was walking better and even was able to go outside. Then on Monday she fell asleep and didn’t wake back up. I have been devastated ever since. She was my baby before Ella. It was so hard I cried for two days straight. Thankfully Johnny was off so I could take some time to breathe and he watched Ella. Sometime maybe next year we will add another furbaby to the mix, maybe even siblings for Ella and I.
Have you ever dealt with the winter blues or loosing a furbaby? Send me a reply, how long did it take you to get over it?
I’d forget my head if it wasn’t attached.
Yes yes I know that saying is said all the time but i’m not kidding. Today I woke up after barely sleeping last night due to my chronic back pain and Ella was awake. I went and grabbed her to lay her down beside me while my husband got ready for work. He rarely works on a Monday so I didn’t think anything about it. Well it wasn’t until after he left that I remembered that I was supposed to go to a meeting for Ella. I felt like such an idiot, as we only have the one vehicle I called everyone I could think of to get a ride. It was a no go. So I had to call up the case manager for Early Intervention and said we would have to reschedule.
Am I gonna be a good advocate for her?
With Ella having a disability there is so much I need to know that I just cannot remember it all. I mean pretty soon we will have to have a meeting to talk about her IEP for preschool. When you have a typically developing child, yeah you gotta know if its a good school but with a special needs child there is SO much more. From IEP to nursing to making sure they are going to treat her right, not like the stories you hear. I just don’t know how to learn about it all. My mama brain feels like I am in college again.
Thankfully our local Down Syndrome group has a lending library so I borrowed a few books about IEPs and Wrights Law. All of them were written by Paul Wright who is an attorney who specializes in children with special needs rights. I almost got to go to a seminar he was having but wasn’t able to attend then. So much I need to learn and it feels like no time at all to learn it. Ella turns 3 in April which is when Early Intervention ends. So she has to go into preschool to continue to get services. I don’t want to put her on the wrong track in life so I guess its time to crack open the books and start learning.
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When you are pregnant with your first child it can be scary enough, but when that child you are carrying has something “wrong” with them makes it even worse.
Now I put the word “wrong” in quotes because there is nothing wrong with my daughter, but that’s how the doctors acted. I was about 12 weeks pregnant with my daughter when I got the phone call (yes a phone call) that the MaterniT21 showed that the baby that I was carrying, My baby, would be born with Trisomy 21 or in other words Down Syndrome. They then set up the appointment to discuss our “options”. Now what is the first thing you think of when you hear the words options while you are pregnant…yep that was the first option they gave us. Abortion, amnio or proceed with the pregnancy like normal. Of course we chose to proceed like normal, and they proceeded to tell us all the things that could go wrong.
Things that COULD go wrong
Not amounting to much
The list goes on and on. See the thing is most doctors only see what could go wrong. They never tell you what could go right.
They never tell you that that little one will be the best thing that ever came into your life. That their smile is contagious and can light up a room and take all your cares away. They don’t tell you of the family you gain when having a child with Down Syndrome. The support you get when things go wrong and the joy you share when things go right. You become part of a community that no matter what they have your back. You have questions don’t be afraid to ask cause well hey they have been through it. They don’t tell what beautiful, fun, and loving human beings they can be.
When you go into that appointment don’t dwell on what the doctors tell you could go wrong…Just remember all the things that could and WILL go right.
Who I am is not ready to be who I want to be.
So who am I?
Aright so here we go with the typical about me page to find out who the author of this blog is. Well that’s the problem, I don’t know that yet.
What I do know is my name is Holli, I am a 26 year old wife and mother. I have been married for over a year, and have a little girl with down syndrome. I have always dreamed of living in the south, but I was born and raised and live in Pennsylvania. People have always told me I have a heart of gold. I had a friend in collage give me the nickname Jesus as all I wanted to do was help people out.
I am currently a stay at home mom hoping to soon start my own photography business. Then I can start being a work at home mom and still get to spend everyday with my little girl. Hey maybe this little blog can help too. Now most bloggers that blog about starting your own blog say stay with one topic. The problem is, I love to learn. Having a child with down syndrome is like having a class taught by yourself you learn as you go. I also want to learn about other things like homesteading, making homemade things, and becoming self sufficient. As a person with medical and mental illnesses I also want to learn about how to become healthier both physically and mentally. I want to write about what I learn and the process of learning, who knows maybe I can help someone there going through the same thing.
So stick around and learn with me. It may be multiple topics but that’s how you learn to live life.